I am 29F from Kerala and in a very toxic marriage for 3 years. I'm very depressed and sad all the time. I feel so alone. I used to be a very cheerful and bubbly person. Now all I do is be alone at home. I'm in a very dark place. I married my husband against my parents' wishes, and now I regret it. My sister last day told me that my parents said if I ever am sad in this marriage, I should just return home and don't need to feel afraid to tell them about it because they've seen how he treats me. But I know once I return, everybody will start questioning it, and then it will be a burden to my parents.
I am planning to get divorced and move to banglore/chennai to avoid all this meddling by other people like neighbors, relatives, etc. I am worried if I'll never find a partner. I feel like all men are the same because many women who got divorced and married again have told me that all men are the same. I don't want to live alone for the rest of my life… I want to be in a happy marriage and have kids and live happily. I know there is a stigma against divorced women, and men feel reluctant to marry divorced women. I feel like I'll be alone my whole life without a good partner. Any women here who have remarried and are in a happy marriage? Please give me advice on what I should do?