I’m 37. Been with my lady for 10 years. I have a good job that pays a lot that most people would consider a blessing, even though it’s stressful.
In short, she has developed some serious mental health issues (schizoaffective disorder) which meant that she was hospitalized twice in 2 years and is on antipsychotics that killed her libido. The last time we had sex was a year ago.
Job wise, I got a promotion, but to be honest it’s been same shit, different day for a while now. I tried to look for a different job but at a certain seniority, alternatives don’t come by easily.
We don’t have kids, and I don’t think we will ever have kids given her condition, and tbh I don’t want to have kids anymore because if she ever has an episode again, it would be so traumatizing for the child. I don’t think it’s right to bring a child into the equation.
I have started using escorts because I don’t know what else to do. I’m not going to divorce her because she is ill. And I care about her a lot. But what else am I supposed to do?
I have also lost a bit of purpose in life. Why am I working so hard every day? What for?
Sorry if it’s a bit of a rant. I think I’m lost.