Hey guys
I'll try to sum it all up here without going through a big sob story but essentially I was raised in a religious cult which didn't give me a great start. I am turning 30 within months and I don't have much. I am in Canada, I have about 20k in cash to my name, and a beater of a vehicle. I recently got divorced and went through a psychosis related to the divorce and the cult. I've bought and sold 2 homes in my 20s and each time its been a wash. Now I don't own anything.
Suffice to say I feel like I've gotten my ass kicked pretty hard. I am actually pretty blown away that I'm alive right now after that psychosis. I do have a job right now that I like which grosses about 90k. I take home maybe 5k a month after saving around $300 a month and contributions to pension and stocks. I've got a lot of friends who own houses, couple nice vehicles, 200k+ jobs, etc. Comparison is the thief of joy I know. I don't need anything too fancy, it would just be nice to be able to travel more freely, and maybe have enough security to just feel comfortable. I'm also in such a liminal space in trying to decide what life is all about. I know there's a ton of atheists/nihilist types on reddit so I don't want to get too far into that. Basically would just like to hear some stories from you guys that maybe felt down and out in life, and how you moved forward/recovered.