I'm a 28 F graduated doctor from a Desi country. I am unmarried and have zero prospects. I had a situationship with my friend to whom I Co fussed my feelings and he told me that we should take a break, I got rejected.
I did my PLAB 1 exam, and failed. I looked for a job for almost 6 months and finally found one which was far away from home and I had to love in a hostel. I worked for a very small salary which barely covered my monthly expenses. After 8 months of working for them I got fired because my boss hired his relative in my place. Whi b was very unfair to me but I had no power to do anything about it.
I did my mbbs in a different desi country, where I had found friends that were like sisters! Who love me without expecting anything in return and I love them the same. I had to leave them and return to my homeland, where I realised that I had no friends whatsoever.
All my friends that I had in my homeland had all moved away from here to other countries. I have nobody to hang out with. I always stay at home with my family.
Everyone my age are either married or have settled in life. I feel alone, and so much like a loser.
I am an extrovert and often described as a bubbly personality, "lights up the room", "sunshine"
But with every passing day I feel so dark within. I have difficulty holding long conversations with people. I can't stand people and I'm slowly regressing into becoming an introvert.
I feel this constant worry and sudden panic attacks. I get annoyed easily. I've become grumpy and quiet.
I don't know what's the point of this post, I'd appreciate someone who relates maybe. I'd love to hear stories of people who have been through a similar situation. I feel utterly hopeless