I (f) and my bf have been joking around when we were having our conversation. He then inserted in our conversation that he wants more of me looking at him when giving him a head. So when he said that, in my mind, I was thinking that I will find it so sexy if he begs for it. So I told him to beg jokingly, and he refuses to, and I told him that maybe he doesnt want it enough. But he said that he has always wanted it. So I said then beg for it. Later on, I could feel that the atmosphere was changing so I asked why he wouldn't. I asked if begging would hurt his ego. When he said yes I thought it was a joke so I asked him again and this time I told him that if he's serious that it would hurt his ego, and he still said yes.
I just don't understand why it would hurt his ego, and when there are times I would beg for something I won't mind it. I just thought that it's sexy if he would but now it would hurt his ego. Also in his defense, he said it's the one thing a man would not beg for let alone ask for. But it's fine if I beg? I'm so confused and I don't understand why I feel it's unfair
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Edit:
I spoke to my bf about it. And to him, he can beg anything related to sex, but the only exception is when I'm guving him a head. The reason he likes being dominant is because he wants me to be serving him. And to add to that, as someone who is being served, there is no need for him to ask for any favours. So when it comes to head, he is the one being in control. But besides head, he's okay to beg for sex. And I believe it's a valid reasonas to why he doesn't want to beg.
And for context, I keep telling him that my role in our relationship is to be the one serving him while he protects and provides for me. And when it comes to sex life, I like being submissive too.