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My best friend and I met online a few years ago, and both have had feelings for each other in the past. Wev talked about it a bunch, but both agreed that we couldn't make it work since we were across the world
Fast forward 3 years, and I went to the UK (from the US) to go see him for the first time everthis week. We were so excited and are having an amazing time. We agreed jokingly before hand that nothing would happen, but there is clear tension in the air. We went out drinking 2 nights ago, got back to the hotel at 5, and got into the same bed at the hotel. Nothing happened at night, but the next morning we were in bed, and i was giving him a bit of a massage which kinda turned into a feel down where he then put my hand on his ass and leaned into and enjoyed it. After, he flipped over and and gave me a kiss on the lips with a blush. Nothing else happened.
We didn't talk about it at all the next day, and acted like nothing happened. It's been eating at me and I fit like tings were off some l asked him today about how he felt and he said "let's not go into it and try to forget about it (not in a bad way) for both our sakes"
Wev both been asking each other if we're ok periodically since, and he can probably tell I'm not ok. I feel like my stomach is fillipping and that l've fucked up…
I know he has feelings for me, he's confessed so in the past a few time, and me to him. When either of us had boyfriends, we were both upset and mentioned it when we were drunk.
I just want to know how to fix it.. I don't want to loose him and I love him so much it hurts..