I saw my friends hanging out on Instagram, and immediately I felt like I'm about to die.
The pulse rose, the fever in the chest began and the anxiety has been going on for 4 hours.
Seems like a panic attack, never confronted such thing before.
People tell me I'm an extrovert, and I'm good at making first contact, but I think this is it.
I realized "maybe I have never had friends my entire life?
"Maybe people I see as my friends do not see me as such?"
It feels like I have friends and at the same time I don't.
I haven't found anything decent on YT, I even remembered Reddit exists.
I noticed that I have a huge problem with connecting with people, and maintaining friendships.
It's okay if I'm nervous.
I think do not have a slightest clue of how to be friends with someone.
What do friends usually do? Do they text each other even though they see each other every day at university?
How does friendship work?