I might be a cross dresser and I’m disgusted with myself

Male. I recently watched some sissy porn and it turned me on a lot, then I began having thoughts of me getting dressed up, having makeup done and being submissive to a female, and I really considered beginning the journey of a cross dresser and was going to try a skirt and stockings and panties on, however now I’m disgusted with myself and thinking what is wrong with me why am I so weird, I feel embarrassed and ashamed and feel very emasculated, what should I do?