First of all as a man with basic heart I regret what I have done and if only I knew that I would hurt her this much I wouldn't do it in the first place.
And secondly, we are pretty much active people in our sex life and I kinda butchered it.
Me [19M] and my gf[19F] had a sex after a month -which is a very long time for me as I love having sex with her- and while doing that she just pushed me and told me that it hurts. Well, usually I stop when it happens and she says that she is done and she finishes me off. But this time because of the long time and a stressful day -for both of us- I didn't wanna listen to her as I thought she wasn't paying attention to me.
That "attention" thing comes from this; whenever I try to seduce, foreplay or dirty talk her she blasts a laugher and changes the topic which really annoys me. I told her about that and she said that she only does that for getting shy and not to reject me. I am really into her however, her laughing really breaks my courage about it.
So, this time I did not stop and told her to pay attention to me. I stopped when I realized that she started crying. We got dressed, I gave her a cup of water and gave her a proper apoligize then we explained ourselves to each other.
Now, I think I caused a trauma to her and I know that I am the asshole here but I don't want her to experience sort of a fear in her future relationships if we broke up.
She told me that she forgave me and it feels weird when I don't touch her just because of it -yes I am touch addicted kind of bf- but this time it makes me feel weird because it is okay when we touch each other and she touches me full erect but not okay when I touch her everywhere but the vagina? I asked her to not touch her at least until she feels alright with me again but as I said she refused it as that would make her feel even more weird and she said that she actually wants my touch.
She tells me that she only needs time but knowing that I did this makes me feel like I should do something. Do I have anything to do?
TL;DR: Gf said it hurts but I kept going and made her cry and don't know what to do.
Also please let me know if this problem is irrelevant to the subreddit.