should i be worried

i masturbate i don’t wanna say a lot but not ? i got into the mood and i started rubbing my clit cause i am scared of my hole, i heard of this happening before but i didn’t believe it, i guess if you go too hard your clit can disappear or like go small ? i’m numb down there, did have some pain and i’m scared to check. i’m 17 and i don’t wanna go to my mom about this type of conversation unless it’s something serious google isn’t helping 😭😭😭