this is kinda a vent post but i’m trying to give details of my actions.
lately i’ve been trying to date/ find new friends. but it takes a lot of effort out of me. i know i want these people to like me, so i try very hard but after a while i get tired of trying. so i either stop messaging or they do. i only message one of the new friends i made and it’s every so often. i’m ok with that but it seems surface level.
so i’m my goal is to find new friends, maybe a relationship but i don’t want to burn myself out from trying as hard. i put my all and i overthink a LOT , so i want to reel myself in emotionally so i can be chill and build these relationships without stressing myself out. i can’t help if they stop messaging but i want to prevent myself from being avoidant and stopping myself from making new friendships.