Hello friends. Throwaway account for obvious reasons.
I [F] was fooling around with a fwb a couple nights ago, and we had pretty rough kinky anal sex. I'd already pooped that day. Things were going well. He came in my butt and continued for awhile longer, but when he went to finally pull out, he did so quickly, and there was a fiery poop explosion. I wish I was being overdramatic, but it literally shot out, over the bed, onto him, across the room onto the floor. It wasn't just a little bit. He said, "I literally fucked the shit out of you," and that's when I realized. I was so embarrassed.
My fwb was great about it, didn't make it a big deal, got us in the shower, put the bedding in the wash, and cleaned everything up. BUT I was mortified. I was expecting maybe a little poo on his dick after all that, but the explosion was horrific. Fwb guessed it got sucked out like he was a plunger since the last pull out was pretty quick. He said it wasn't a bit deal, that shit happens. We still had a little anal play a couple days later, so he couldn't have been that freaked out by it. But, I can't over the fact that someone watched me poo myself as a 30 year old woman and then also cleaned it up after.
How do I get over this and emotionally recover? How can I prevent that from happening again if I do emotionally recover?