Hello,
I got cheated on almost a year ago, and ever since then, I have mostly focused on myself and healing. For around 5-6 months, I have been on dating apps and never had a single match. I was already frustrated by that but nearly 3-4 weeks ago, I created an online profile on one of the other dating apps that I had not tried yet and tried out my luck there. It was going to be my last one for sure because I had enough. I did get a match with this pretty girl, and she was not just beautiful but also had the same interests as me. We were chatting normally and it was pretty amazing chatting with her, then I asked her out after 3-4 days of chatting and she told me that it's pretty soon right now. I was like "Okay, no rushes", then, waited for her to get a little bit comfier talking to me. Yesterday, she asked me if I was available that night and I said yes. We did arrange a meeting and met in person, finally. She was really pretty in person as well, I was attracted to her, but figured that she was a little bit nervous so I didn't do anything to make her feel uncomfortable around me. She bought me a brownie and I got her a coffee. We chatted for almost 2 hours and it was amazing. We were laughing etc. At the end of the night, she said "Look you are amazing, and I would spend my life with you, you would be an amazing partner but I didn't feel a single spark when I was with you, so there won't be a second date". I was speechless. I was not expecting that at all. I walked her to the cab, she hugged me and I said goodbye. This morning she texted me "I have a feeling that I broke your heart by saying that". I said "I was just surprised, you liked my pictures, you liked my online profile, and you heard my voice, I don't know what were you expecting in person but I am pretty much the same person as you chatted for a week, and I can't stop thinking about that in 2 hours, what could have been happened? I would give at least a second date to our matching energy and vibes, and maybe even a third, to understand it better". She said, "No, if I don't feel a spark in the minute I see you, there won't be another time, this is just who am I". Then she just walked away from the chat. We haven't talked ever since this morning. I had a feeling this would be the girl of my life because she was just perfect, a girl I would go for it, to the marriage I mean. I deleted the app and even closed my Instagram, I just have WhatsApp for work purposes now, and I feel bad.