I'm kinkier than about 99% of the population.
It scares a lot of men off if I bring it up. I'm not sure why.
I'm very clear that I've slept with less than a handful of men and only if seriously dating them.
I think just I seem very sweet and I go to church and have a low amount of people I've slept with, so when I mention all the freaky shit I'm into they're normally completely shocked.
It has caused some to no longer be interested in me.
Should I just try to convert myself to being vanilla or pretend to not have any kinks?
I mean it is nothing that crazy- I just love everything with my butt or his butt (like I love anal, eating my butt or his butt, fingering our butts- wouldn't be open to pegging though)
I also have a cum fetish and I love if a guy finishes inside me and sucks it out and spits it in my mouth.
I've also always wanted to have a guy finish in my coffee in the morning and I take it to work with me and sip on it all day. Or to save it up in a jar from a month of masturbating and rub it all over my naked body.
Also love doing it in kinky/fun different places. (The beach, a public hot tub, my parents’ bed, and once even in a church parking lot- I know- I'm probably going to hell for that one…)
I normally don't mention my kinks to a guy until a few dates in because I want to determine sexual compatibility and tastes but I don't want to mention it too early so he doesn't think that's all I'm looking for.
The thing is I'm a physician in residency in a competitive specialty so sex is how I blow off steam. My first boyfriend is now a surgeon and my second is a trial lawyer so they both were equally freaky.
Help? Advice?