I had matched with a girl on some dating app and quickly had found a liking for her within days. However, I then found out she was in love with her ex bf, and he basically was just using her for sex. We continued to talk as I was trying to help her get away from this guy because I knew she deserved better (me). We eventually met up a few times and I loved every second, but she ultimately went back to him. Needless to say I was heart broken, I made many Instagram, snapchats, and even second numbers to try and show her how much she meant to me in an effort to win her back. Sadly that didn’t work and I went through one of the toughest times of my life, I was broken and experienced manic episodes extremely frequently. I used sex as a way to cope, but as we know that did not help. I made a ton of terrible decisions in the following months and was extremely depressed. However I would say around 4 months later I felt that I forgot about her and I did, I felt normal or so I thought. She eventually came back to me and we had a thing for a few months and I did not feel happy nor upset, I felt completely indifferent, I then dated her because I’m a dumbass and then left her a month later because I really did not love her. I haven’t felt the same innocent love for a woman since her and I would say I don’t feel anyways towards females no matter how “my type” they are. I still struggle with PTSD and I don’t trust anyone anymore. I’m worried that I’ll never love the same and I’m scared. I do not know how to help this because I know the issue, I just don’t see anyway to solve this. Feel free to share similar experiences, ways to overcome these feelings, or ask questions.