I’m posting this here because I don’t know where else to post it and I really need to vent.
I have social anxiety and I feel like it’s eating away at my life I’m unable to make small talk or have casual conversations with anyone really. I feel anxious around strangers, my friends, my family , hell I even have social anxiety on line ! I can’t ask questions in my uni’s group chats because i’m constantly worried about what people might think of me or my way of speaking. I feel like I have a permanent crowd behind my back watching my every move and pointing out my every flaw. I can’t remember the last time I felt comfortable talking to someone. I’m always overthinking anything I say or do my heart starts racing the second someone talks to me unexpectedly.
Now I think I’ve done a good job hiding my social anxiety for now but I don’t know how much longer I can go on , I have less friends than people my age and most of them are from middle school if not elementary school.
I’m so tired, I just want to feel normal to be able to socialize and not waste my “best” years because of this. I feel completely drained.
Also, English isn’t my first language so sorry for any mistakes.