After I got introduced to her the first time, I almost immediately forgot her name, but something in my mind said that it was Ellie. Not knowing for sure made me feel rude so I apologized and asked once more (it was Ellen). But shortly thereafter the same thing happened again. Then again, and again and again until I finally learned it but when I did it had become a meme and we had grown quite close to each other.
During this time, maybe like revenge she started calling me by a pretty feminine sounding nickname. We continued to talk, dance and drink until it was time for me to leave. We and a couple of others were talking in a closed off room down in the basement and I was going to go home in my incredibly drunk friend’s dad’s car. As the others were going up the stairs me and Ellen stayed in the sofa. Every time I tried to get up, she would hug me tightly and drag me down again and this continued a number of times until we laid there quite still and nestled together. I should mention that we didn’t really do anything, just chitchatting and hugging tightly.
The next week in school I met her once more and she seemed incredibly happy to see me and so was I. This felt very reassuring as I was a bit worried it was only the alcohol.
A week after the first party I met her again at a second party. Thankfully I remembered her name correctly although the meme continued. We drank and danced, swam and sung, talked and tripped, mostly with others but sometimes alone. We didn’t kiss but probably came darn close several times in the night.
After this party I’ve gotten a couple of remarks that she probably likes me and questions about whether I like here or not. This Tuesday I asked for her number quite openly in the lunch canteen while her friends were present. This Wednesday she sent me a text saying hi in a cute way and I accidentally sent something really dull back and haven’t heard from her since.
Now I’m feeling terribly confused. In fact, I’ve felt confused since the first time I met her. Sometimes it feels like my entire life I’ve chased other people around trying to stay in the loop. The feeling of being wanted is rare for me and feels quite astonishing. I’ve never been told that someone probably likes me and I’ve never thought about someone so much and wondering what I think of them.
What should I do the next time I se her? Is the sms part only because she has a Nokia?