Feeling neglected

I tend to be too long winded and if this was an isolated incident I doubt I’d feel this way.

H had and emotional affair with his 19 yo coworker but now couches his behavior as “ just friends” and “trying to help someone who had a abusive childhood” like he did.

I admit I am having a hard time letting go of the past. I am in therapy with a good doctor

We’ve been trying to reconcile but we haven’t done together anything since March.

He works 6 days a week 5a – 7/8/9 p. We hardly see each other because then Sunday’s he’s usually out running errands.

But since March, we had crummy weather, and then I found out I had Lyme and the antibiotics made me sick…and then the whole house got covid again.

This was the first weekend in a month we weren’t sick and I get a text Friday that he’s going to TopGolf and then charter fishing Sunday – oh and forget Saturday, he’s working. No choice, no “oh hey I got invited to do this stuff, did you have plans or want to make them?”

We / I start a huge fight as I feel neglected.

He did offer to go to a movie / dinner last night but I was too angry to accept.

He’s on his fishing trip today. I asked him last night if he could please stay in touch. Let me know when the boat leaves. Is that honestly something out of the ordinary or too clingy / codependent?

It’s 1p EST, he left at 4:30a and nothing.

Yes, I’m in therapy

I don’t have many friends, but get out occasionally- like yesterday I went kayaking and had lunch with a girlfriend. I go to movies with my kids. I’ll do things by self too, sometimes.

Yes I know and have posted on “one after infidelity” for advice – I come here because I’m about done trying to reconcile. It’s been a pretty one sided reconciliation