So long story short my long term partner cheated on me and I have been cleaning up that mess in therapy and basically all my repressed emotions came flooding out and I have owned up to them. From my teen years I had a fear of rejection but I did not esnt to admit to it, I worried that a mental disorder would make me stick out, among other things.
With all that I have come to peace with my mentla disorder and have come to peace with myself and my issues. I have needs just like evertone else, even if they are not run of the mill. Further I went to a club (I was anxious as hell about going when I went precovid) and finally started to say hi to people that look at me (mostly women but men too). That last part is a work in progress but I am giving myself grace to get back out there.
Overall I want to network a bit more (to advance my career/business prospects) and to meet women casually. It might take a bit but I just worry about fucking up, more so with the last group, especially with the mental disorder. But on the positive side I have not committed to the idea of a serious relationship or anything as I still feel hesitsnt after being burnt.
Anyone else starting over? How did you jump back out there?
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What sort of ‘mental disorder’?
-psychopath?
-anxiety prone?
-deep depression?
-Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?
-or?