Preface: I am going to talk about taboo fantasies, so trigger warning. Also, I don’t endorse any of these fantasies in real life. Just wanna get that settled first. And of course I will do my best to abide by the rules of conduct.
Hello. new here, so I’ll try and be brief. I (M29) have a lot of taboo sexual fantasies, and this causes me lots of shame. I have a school girl fetish (I would never want to sleep with a real high schooler, that’s immoral and illegal).
I also have a bit of an incest kink. I like to pretend that my partner or the person I am fantasizing about is my older sister, older cousin, step sister/step mom, etc. I have never actually wanted to sleep with a real family member, and I consider it immoral. It just turns me on because it’s wrong.
I’m also in to power dynamics, especially student and teacher. I especially like to imagine myself as a high school guy with a teacher I find attractive, or like a friend’s mom or something. Usually with my partner or whoever I am fantasizing about. Sometimes I feel gross because I imagine being “instructed” by a dominant older woman while discovering my sexuality.
I also used to consume lots of fanfiction about fictional characters centered around these topics. However the online discourse there has turned me away and made me sick. I have been called a disgusting pedophile, a monster, groomer, etc. and even told to kill myself.
Sometimes I genuinely feel like I don’t deserve to have a normal happy life as a result of my kinks. Like I am intrinsically bad because of my ability to enjoy these thoughts. Like I am tacitly endorsing them or something, which I never would!
I have tried many times to repress these sexual urges but I can’t seem to do so. It makes me feel like a bad guy. I always think people would hate me if they knew. Having people say that people like me deserve to be killed or put on a list makes me feel so guilty. I have always wanted to be a loving husband and father but I feel like I don’t ever deserve that honor.
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So what the porn industry feeds us? These are fairly common is porn scenarios. Just find the right person to roleplay with.
I am sorry you are going through this. But yea I think you watch a lot of porn and it changed your perspective towards sex. Anyways, one thing i would advice you NOT to do is to feel shame and suppress things. So far everything you said is quite common and mostly harmless really. So don’t feel shame about it, who you are is who you are.
The positive way to think about this and act on it is, first of all to be honest with your partner, a partner who doesn’t respect, accept, and enjoy your fantasies is not a good match for you. second, stay away from anything harmful to others, goes without saying. But otherwise enjoy what you like with someone as kinky as you are and don’t think about it twice
This isn’t rare, seems like you just need a few outfits and a partner who gets off on roleplay
You’re perfectly normal. A fantasy is just that a fantasy. Every person you know is a kinky little freak who has fantasies very similar to you or even more taboo