I don’t know what kind of chain reaction caused me to become like this, but I’ve recently experienced an unpleasant situation to which I couldn’t respond properly. I’d take questions (even if they’re ironic) way too serious, basically ruining the mood, and if people expect me to say something funny, I don’t. Don’t get me wrong: It’s not like I wanna sound boring or soulless on purpose, I simply can’t come up with an answer that suits the other persons expectations. Saying the proper answer would take me minutes, maybe a few seconds at best, and I obviously don’t have this much time for a joke…
This got me really into thinking since I used to be an open-minded and extremely energetic person who wouldn’t stop talking, just spitting words left and right. Nowadays I act like a machine: I receive an Input, I give an Output. That’s it.
I genuinely can’t tell why I’m behaving the way I do, I only figured that a particular series of crucial events could ever possibly change my personality by such an aggressive extent (And no, I don’t have ptsd nor have I suffered from Trauma) Could this be linked to my subconscious self? How can I come up with an answer that’s instantaneous and fits the mood at the same time?