Before reading this I want to say, I really want to be with him and have no idea why I’m feeling like this cus I know I love him I just keep second guessing it
I am currently having the worst time with my anxiety in my life ( I am currently trying to seek help)
Basically I’ve been seeing my boyfriend for about two months but dating almost a month, we’ve known each other for awhile on and off due to him being long distance we forgot about each other for a year then reconnected
My boyfriend has had abusive relationships and so have I, we are different when it comes to how we show the trauma he doesn’t like talking about feelings and can get super annoyed easily and he’ll play his game everday ( which makes me feel lonely) and when I say everyday it’s as soon as he wakes up even sometimes when I’m at his house. I deal with it by being extremely clingy I have abandonment issues and my loving style is being attached to someoNe
At the moment My anxiety has gotten quite bad ever since I started to date him I was fine when we didn’t date, but when we did and I left his house I got fearful and worried like I didn’t love him even tho I know I love him I generally think my anxiety is picking on new things that have happened in my life to be anxious about like I use to be worried he didn’t love me but it’s changed to me being like what if I don’t love him but I really want to love him, I feel like I feel like this because how can push me away a lot of the time and it just makes me disinterest a bit I don’t know how to talk to him about this when I do talk to him it makes him say I’m hurting him so how should I approach this . I also want to add I think I may have a personality disorder like bpd, which could be affecting why I feel like this
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