I feel like everyone secretly hates me

I’m 24F and I haven’t been able to keep friends around for longer than a year or two all my life. I’m autistic, was an immigrant child who got bullied a lot growing up, and my family constantly moved to a new city every 2 years or so, so that definitely made it very difficult for me. I have had several close friendships throughout my life and I never got into any fights or had any kind of falling out with any of these people. However, I often find that my closest friends would gradually talk to me less and less until I just never hear from them again and I never know where I went wrong. I was definitely very shy and awkward growing up but as I got older, gained more life experience, and moved out of my parents’ house years ago, I found that I became a lot more outgoing and open to meeting and connecting with people.

I moved to my current city a year ago and met my only two friends. We were all hanging out every other weekend and I felt like I genuinely became really close with them as we always went out to do fun things with their social circle that I felt like I became a part of and connected on a really deep emotional level. There was never a dull moment and we would all consistently stay in touch via text/social media.

However, in early May I noticed that wouldn’t hear from them as much. I immediately jumped to the worst of conclusions and assumed that I did something wrong and they secretly hate me. It got to the point that we wouldn’t talk unless I reached out first (which I would only do once a week because I’m afraid of coming off as annoying)

Last week, one of the guys reached out to me and asked if I wanted to hang out . It was a great night, no complaints. The following night, I ran into him at a bar. He was with a group of people, but ditched them to keep hanging with me. Eventually, we both got pretty tipsy and vulnerable, turning the night out into a therapy session. I was afraid that I overshared/trauma dumped/made it all about me at first but we texted again in the morning and it seemed like everything was fine. I had to go to a job interview later that day and he said that he was going to a show in the same neighborhood. When I got to the place, the hiring manager never showed and wouldn’t return my calls so I figured I would reach out to my friend and ask where the show was going to be since I was already there— he left me on read and I just went home. The following day, I was scrolling through instagram and saw that he and the whole friend group went out without me, no invite, nothing. Maybe I’m overreacting, but I was really upset and couldn’t help but think that I did something wrong, they all hate me, and they only hung out with me before because they felt bad for me or something. I also haven’t heard from friend #2 in almost three weeks except for 2 times where I ran into him at the grocery store and we just exchanged a quick “hi”.

Given my history, i should be used to losing friends all the time but for some reason I’m unable to handle rejection in any capacity, overreact to the smallest changes in a person’s behavior, and take everything personally. I’m afraid of reaching out again and coming off as needy, but I’m also afraid of losing my friends because I feel like I’ve made genuinely good connections with both of them. Am I overreacting or is there genuinely something that I could be doing wrong?