Sup! (Soon to be) 22 year old dude here. I’ve had girlfriends before, I made out, I sexted but have yet to have any sexual encounters. This will come into play later.
I honestly have no clue where I should start with this. I think it started a few years ago: I’ve always had a thing for yiff (furry porn) and eventually dabbled into the gay variety of that where the characters in question would be very feminine looking. Curvy, nice hips, femboys, you get the picture.
It really didn’t stop there though, I moved on to real gay porn as well and I get off to it just as good as I would watching straight porn. I have a very specific type though: the guys need to have very feminine features, otherwise it just doesn’t cut it for me. Lately, I’ve been getting into feminine guys (or femboys) that are hung as well. The thought of sucking them off/eating them out being a huge turn on for me. I could go on and on, but the point is I can get just as passionate about men as I can about woman
A part of me really wants to try a hookup with someone who fits my type, but another part of me doesn’t ‘accept myself’ if that makes sence. Like I should at least have had a couple of sexual experiences with woman before getting into men if that makes sense. Like having my first time with a man would be very wrong. Some sort of internalized homophobia?
On the other hand, I also feel like sexual frustration plays a role. I’m someone with a high libido who hasn’t had any luck with woman so far on a sexual front, and it’s really starting to take its toll. When turning the switch from woman to men on dating apps… Well, the options seem endless.
What should I do?
**TL;DR:** I get turned on by and get off to gay furry porn/real life porn where the guys have very feminine features. I want to try a hook up of sorts, but a part of me is holding me back because ‘it’s not right to have your first time with a guy’ or that I’m afraid I’m gonna regret it. I’m also pretty damn sexually frustrated from not getting any and wondering if my homosexual feelings are because of that,
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Fuck society, do it, have fun. Society and media has sold this idealized the first time is magical bullshit, it’s not, its awkward. If you want suck and fuck a femboy, go for it.
You do you man. You don’t need no labels
As a woman who is bicurious, I get your internal confusion a lot… but I’m pretty sure I am bi and there’s nothing wrong with that
You’re gynosexual! Attracted to femininity 🙂 my bf is as well, he loves women and femboys alike
It sounds like you’re bisexual or finsexual. It’s definitely okay for your first time to be with a guy. Some people even have a seperate first time for each respective gender they’re interested in. Both are valid. Do whatever makes you feel most comfortable from here.