Am I(21f) attracted to women after identifying as straight my whole life?

I’m attracted to men extremely. I have always had crushes on men and not girls. But ever since puberty, my sexual fantasies were always with women. I’d watch porn of women on women and only recently have I enjoyed straight porn too. I’ve been sexually active for 3 years with 3 different men and I still have dreams about having sex with a woman. Mainly dreams of a woman playing with me with toys or going down on me. I would love for a man to do it but they’ve never been good at it and I always get insecure and question whether or not they want to. I don’t look at women romantically or ever had a crush on one at all. I also think about men sexually more because I usually want penetration from them but everytime I think about clitoral orgasms, I really fantasize about a woman doing it. I’m also not sure if I should tell my boyfriend about it. I love that he’s trying with going down on me, but I literally have to imagine a woman because 1) he’s not that good and 2) I feel like imagining a woman knowing what she’s doing than a man who’s clueless is super sexy.