Hey guys, so I came to the realization that I’m socially awkward recently. Basically, I went on a church retreat and no one talk to me first and I had to initiate convos. I actually been working on this previously but I fell apart when talking to new people. Most of my convos starters were boring and I pick bad times to say something. After a while a lot of people, stop even including me into things and that’s when it dawn on me.
Also people in the group are more blunt so they flat out said it to my face. When this happen, I feel hurt and relieved at the same time because in past social interactions, I knew people were turned off by me. Now I know why women never want to go on dates with me and why male friends insult me more than most.
It’s frustrating to say the least because I really did work on this for 3 years with therapy and cold approaching. I don’t feel like I have made progress and now I pay the price for it. Currently this is how I feel.
Has anyone been here before? What did you do to get better?
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I use drugs for it. I am still pretty awkward but at least I dont beat myself because of it