I had my first orgasm with a man

I usually can give myself full-on orgasms but I had TWO with someone else!

It was really beautiful and I had one with him. We had been intimate before and he knew that I can do it again even if I doubt it!

We were at it again and I just let go. I have never been that comfortable before.

The problem starts when I decided to stop f\*king him. My alone times haven’t been as strong, frequent, and/or easily accessible.

I tried to go into my other kinks to avoid just masturbating to him. I have to work harder and try new things. I just want to cum and shake uncontrollably until I lull myself to sleep.

My advice for others would be to keep some things to yourself!

I used to be able to get around this by just fulfilling other people’s fantasies and/or introducing butt play. Where I can take or leave it. I may have to start putting on a whole show for myself and stimulating what needs to be but it’s gone get expensive.