I had a rough childhood, sexual abuses, mentally I am not good at all.
I had many near sex experiences, many girls where in to me, however I always freak out at amd take a step back, I am not even good in romantic relationships, a friend of mine who was a virgin as well asked me a direct question to have sex together, I froze and did nothing until she changed her mind, I really wanted it but something held me back.
I looked up, it is called fear of intimacy which is connected to more complex mental health issues.
I am asking anyone here for a piece of advice, I feel ashamed a bit speaking about these matters, but I really could use some help.