Do my friends hate me? Or am I just not used to large groups?

I moved to a completely new city alone last year for college. I had a hard time making friends and going out at first but eventually kinda fell into a group. Everything was perfect at first, I had a group of going out friends that I never planned on being close with and my two roommates instantly became my best friends I would use for support. However my two support friends dropped out and I was left with my going out group.

At first, I was really excited to try something new. My whole life I’ve always ended up with two really close friends that I feel at home with but we never test our boundaries. So I was excited to try my hand at being part of a bigger group. But now I’m miserable.

I feel like everyone hates me constantly because I’m not invited to everything all the time. This makes sense logistically there are a lot of people and it can be hard to orchestrate and sometimes you want things to be more intimate. But my brain is constantly shutting down saying they hate me and that I need to start from scratch. Then the literal next day, I’ll see them and I’ll feel so accepted.

Also because there are so many people all the time, I don’t feel inherently close to any of them. I think some know me better and some I’m more comfortable around. But I am constantly questioning my every move. None of my new friends really laugh at my jokes or catch on to my bits. None of them really listen to my opinions. None of them seem to really know me or what I like at all despite knowing them for just under a year now.

It’s a constant give and take and it’s making me lose my mind. Am I just being too insecure? Or should I listen to my intuition? Is this just what it’s like being in groups bigger than three? Or should I read the social cues that I think they are giving me and duck out?