As the title says I’ve been fooling around for the past 2 years with guys. I was out of a straight relationship just over 3 years ago. I had a good few experiences in that time, probably received 20 blowjobs and topped two Cd’s in that time. Every single time I get post but clarity and instantly regret it, until I’m horny again. I don’t have find guys attractive, it’s just the ease of getting a bj I liked. I’ve tried a few different things in that time too. But recently it’s been different. Last time I got a bj I really hated myself. I put the thoughts and urges out of my head and I realised I’ve been much happier. If I was to find a girlfriend I guarantee these urges would be non existent.
I just want to know if anyone has felt the same and managed to successfully leave it in their past? I think about sex quite a lot and haven’t had much luck with women so that’s why my mind wandered to guys. But I feel like I’ve got to the point where I’ve done it and I want to move on and forget about it. It should be worth mentioning that nobody knows I’ve done this , only the people I was with.
Please no hate because I’m being genuine. I want to move past this. Call it bi or not straight but I just don’t want to think about it anymore. Any comments would be appreciated. Thank you.
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Of you don’t want to have sex with men…. Don’t have sex with men.
It’s not complicated. Personally I would work on the shame. In the short term, try to learn to enjoy masturbating.
20 blowjobs lol seems they know what they were doing 😅