I don’t usually post on any form of social media including Reddit, for the same reason I don’t push myself to make new friends. I’m 22. I have an incredibly low self-esteem and don’t feel I have anything to offer. I just moved to a new state and started at a grad school a few weeks ago. When I was in high school I had some pretty good friends. Even then I was always hesitant to “be myself” because I was afraid of looking dumb to the point of being known as the quiet guy in the group of people I trusted the most. That’s not who I want to be though. Maybe it sounds simple, I should just get out there more. But the thing is I’ve been immersing myself in self help books, self help videos, meditation, and looking into the psychology of what would lead me to this path. I get motivated then I go into social environments where people have no idea who I am and I try to have a simple conversation with people and something still seems off. I’ve been told quite a bit that I’m a good looking guy. Maybe I just don’t have the confidence and vulnerability I need. When I got into my undergrad I immediately I felt I had to change this and wanted to put myself out there and turn a new leaf. Still I was considered the quiet guy early on and it stayed that way until I graduated. Now I moved to another state for grad school. I went through the same shpeal to myself of how I’m going to put myself out there and develops my social skills. Yet again it’s been over a month and a half and I just feel there is always this resistance when I talk to someone else like I’m missing something even though I feel I’m being natural and “normal”. If there’s anyone who can relate and wants to share their story of how they dealt with it. That would mean the world.