Hello… So I don’t know the most appropriate subreddit for this topic but I’ve seen some fairly similar posts so here I go.
I’ve been through some emotional roller coasters and now everything was supposed to be stable. Yet, I find myself always overthinking, especially when interacting with other people.
I think I noticed it the most when I started working as I had to meet many people and communicate with them regularly and I found out something.
Something stupid will happen and then I’ll get bit mad but then I’ll start having these thoughts of how they’re doing this in an evil way and sometimes I’ll picture them doing said bad action just to piss me off and then I’ll get angrier. Sometimes the thoughts – which I take to be real for some reason- get so manipulative and shady that I shake from the anger – I do shake pretty easily tho – I don’t like it and it can push me away from people really bad.
Sometimes I’ll do something silly and transform their mediocre reaction into a probable eye-roll at me, it’s so stupid because they’re never quite real. I’m always doubtful of people because I see how they could treat others and how many people don’t like others yet go along with them and fear it will happen to me.
It’s really hard to explain but that’s my best shot at explaining it, I don’t know if I need therapy and I sure as hell don’t have time for it.
It’d help if you guys could give me your input.