Soo I posted here a little while ago about the guy I like… or I should say liked… before I start just gonna say this didn’t push me back in my progress with my anxiety, which is good…
but yeah definitely didn’t end well… ended with me getting drunk and going on a rant on the vent sub (tonight, and it’ll probably be taken down again for “slander”😒)…. soo if anyone goes to medieval times in Florida beware of the server Dennis… he’s an asshole, he won’t seem like it because that’s how he got me.. I mean that is if he still works there when mama bear is finished…
so after our initial messages and I warned him of my anxiety and he told me he wasn’t sure if he was ready to deal with something like that. Next day he messaged me asking if I wanted help with my anxiety… So i tried getting him to talk, the most reaction I got out of him was for a stupid anime that’s his favorite.. I wasted my time watching that stupid shit (no offense to anyone else who enjoys it)
I tried since then to get him to put in effort and I should have nipped this in the bud immediately but no I made excuses for his lack of effort… No communication on his end.. I know “ghosting” is common but like come on were adults use your fucking words.. and he didn’t, he didn’t tell me he wasn’t interested or that he didn’t see this going anywhere or that he got a fucking girlfriend… no I had to find out in the shittiest way possible… I saw him with one of his coworkers, they were hugging and he kissed her… and I made the mistake of finding him on Facebook and saw his relationship status which was updated on the 25th…
I hate him… I have never actually hated someone before… but I feel so much rage towards him and that girl… Worst part is his pathetic ass isn’t even worth getting upset over…
and I’m not upset he got a girlfriend, like honestly good for him. I’m upset at the lack of effort and communication from him.. I’m upset that I had to find out in the shittiest way possible…
I wrote him a long ass “book” about how I feel (8 separate long messages on Instagram, if anyone’s curious I’ll post it just gonna change a couple things as it’s a little personal) I told him I’d wait for a response then block him… he saw it and blocked me.. I won’t lie this whole situation hurt but at the same time I’m relieved… I put in way more effort than I’ve received,
honestly I want him fired.. especially because his big ass truck is probably expensive af and he probably needs this job…I know it’s petty but he deserves no mercy… he deserves to be kicked in his obviously non existent balls with steel toed boots (with an extra hard stomp just to be sure 😌)
I’m just venting wherever I can cause I’m 99% sure my friends are like thank God he’s out of her life now she can stfu about him😶