I am meeting new people from time to time, but I feel like I am not able to make friends, people I know just wave at me , ask “Hey, how are you”, and rarely it get more than that, I see people hanging out with each other, celebrating their birthdays…..etc, but I always wonder, why I am lonely, I try my best to get to know people, and connect with them, but it is not working, sometimes I feel weak, sometimes I feel strong, and I try to fill void of not having friends by setting personal goals, like developing my hobby, or reading, going to gym….etc, but sometimes I ask myself, am I doing things right like this?

I also have feelings , like even my parents, they try to avoid me (ofc if I ask them they don’t say it)

And maybe that feeling leaked to other people

I used to get constantly annoyed at work because someone was being annoying at work, and of course, I stood up to myself and told my supervisor that I don’t like it when someone is being annoying to me and such.

From time to time , I feel like I am being tested with people being annoying to me, sometimes I respond, sometimes no, sometimes I am happy I responded, sometimes I am not happy I did not respond.

It is also annoying when you don’t have someone to talk to in university or work (unless of course you forced yourself to meet people, which probably not going to talk to you after the 3rd time)

What is wrong, I can’t figure out.

Same thing happen on internet in places like discord , I say stuffs to engage , but a lot of times no one does engage with me (would be funny if this post got a response though)

I try to go to university everyday and sit in crowded places to feel the social energy, I go to work to do my best and to talk to my peers, I try to forgive people in the past who annoyed me a lot, sometimes I feel I have forgiven for real, but once I am annoyed again, I feel like they are still in my head, but I really do wanna forgive people around me and forget to live a better life.

I tried to face my parents on such issue, and they said that because I am a “good” person with good manners, and that there are a lot of annoying people in life and that you need to be patient.

Honestly, I want to figure out how to be balanced person, and how do I get a friend?

2 comments
  1. To find a friend, you first need to be one. I know it’s not easy, but that is how you find real friends.

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