Whenever I have a conversation with anyone.. I barely even say anything. I keep the conversation casual and try to keep it interesting & it seems as if nobody ever cares to talk to me.
Background context; I’m alone in a city an hour from my family and 3/4 hours from my boyfriend currently who is traveling for work. I called both my mom/dad tonight (who divorced and live in different households).. they both seemed to be busy tonight & have no time to talk. My boyfriend then calls me.. & he seemed bored talking to me. He was almost being short with me. I went on to ask him if he was mad or if something was wrong.. he just stated he was tired. We said I love you/goodnight & he hung up kinda fast.. I just felt like I was on his nerves for some reason. He also does seem bored there also with no friends to talk to (he’s only travelled to this city one other time before). I also haven’t made too much friends in the city I’m currently in bc I recently moved here.. I’m working on meeting new people but have a hard time maintaining connections. These interactions make me feel like I annoy everyone.. or like I would annoy future friends.
Idk if it’s just me overthinking my interactions or if I’m not valued enough by those in my life? I want to cry because those conversations felt so off this evening. It makes me feel even more alone.
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Hey, dont feel too upset. It’s as you said. Your parents were kind of busy and ur bf was tired (maybe had a bad day? Or he too might be feeling a bit off due to the move. You two cud talk about it when u both have time.)
I understand how you feel. You’re not overthinking, you feel lonely since ur loved ones arent in close proximity.
But dont feel bad! Your still new to the city and making friends does take time.
You are not annoying anyone. Dont worry. To me it sounded like u wanted to catch up and talk but they werent free atm.
And about your first part. I think u feel that way cz these are new people? And your kind of starting from scratch? So it feels a little weird to open up at first.
Also i dont think its cz they dont care. Sometimes it cud just be the person takes some time to warm up to mew people too
But dont worry too much.