Classroom crush advice please! :P

I asked this cutie out during the last / finals week of our first semester this year, we didn’t know each other really but had been acquainted. I am also Trans and when we met I was very early in my transition (I look much different half a year later). He asked if we could hang the following semester. When we came back to school I realized we were in the same lecture as well as small group for the class. I asked him out to lunch that week on a specific day, and he let me know he couldn’t because he had a date and his intentions with me was to be friends (big bummer).

Because we were in class + the same small group project I decided we’d be classroom friends and that we would both be mature (which we were). Overtime we became closer and closer, talking about more personal (I.e family life, life before college, aspirations, thoughts on a specific socio-cultural topic, past flaws / mistakes, among other things etc.) than superficial topics. I kept reminding myself that he was seeing someone / that it wasn’t going anywhere and his intentions were made clear.

But as we talked more and more we kept getting closer. I at one point told him he had kind eyes, he told me that the girl he’d been seeing told him he had “predator” eyes. I think things shifted a bit from there, with the contrast of comment. I met up with him and his friends to study and we all very much enjoyed each others company very much, smiling and laughing the whole time ending with an invitation to dinner (which declined because my friends were there) and a nice hug (still thought little of this). When we hung out next together I asked if wanted to come with me to the student center to eat and he agreed to come. When we were there he told me he was exclusive with the girl and told me he was considering having another talk (a little strange as he brushed his hand down my arm / put his foot against mine under the table (big bummer but I teased him about it / encouraged the convo as envy is toxic).

However, when I saw him last he described this girl (lets call her “Mary”) as “my friend marry.” I said “you mean your girlfriend” and he said no, and she doesn’t mind that I call her that, we had the talk and we decided to not do the label. Why bring it up / describe her that way, again I think just hopeful. I had also been challenged by him to watch a movie series his name comes from. Thinking I’d hate the first film but at least try it out, I was pleasantly surprised to find I genuinely liked it, and wanted to continue the series. When I got to talk to him about it he was elated and commented that “he couldn’t believe he was getting to talk about it.”

Our physical proximity / and flirtation has gone up though. Much more eye contact that is longer / intense recently he looked from my eyes to lips then back up again (there wasn’t doubt this time + I had posted a sexy selfie the night before), catching him glancing over at me when in the student center then looking away when caught, sitting next to each other in class / brushing our arms against each other, both preening a bit (maybe we’re just fidgety), copying each others movements a bit, teasing one another and being sarcastic, leaning in very close when speaking to one another, small finger touching when showing him something on my phone, as well as this general sense of radiating tension between us but maybe its just hopefulness. Something has 100% changed in our dynamic though, we share more personal things and flirt more / actually know each other know. I sincerely doubt he doesn’t feel the tension, like if we were in a room alone together im pretty sure we’d have sex, it’s rather palpable sometimes. It’s just a question of what to do next, keep holding out and see what he does? I am seeing other people / have other prospects so my eggs are not all in this basket and ive detached emotionally overtime because of all the aforementioned.

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Also if it means much I do pass / male fail, I haven’t gotten misgendered by strangers in over a couple years at this point and passed successfully before taking HRT.