Just a loner venting

I(30yo male) have next to no male friends. My whole life I’ve always gotten along with women more than men. I feel like I grew up in a semi-toxic masculinity environment which only pushed me further away from wanting to be “one of the guys.” I feel like any guy that has ever wanted to hang out with me has done so only because I’m not really scared to talk to girls. I’ve also dealt with feeling ostracized for pursuing hobbies other than sports. It doesn’t bother me nearly as much as it used to, but it still sucks when your “friendships” ended up feeling like one way streets that end up being dead ends. Idk what the end goal of this rant really was but it feels kinda nice haha. Have a good weekend everyone 🙏👌👍