I have a couple of friends I would say are my current best friends. They also consider me either best friend or very close. I’ve been working to improve myself in many ways, mostly becoming my own person and doing what I want in life, and one thing I learned is that I don’t enjoy hanging out with them as much.
I’m not sure how to handle it. I know a solution, branch out to try and make friends I do enjoy hanging out with. Except I’m not in a position to do that right now. I’m on the path but it will take time.
Plus that only solves half the problem. The other half is a lot of guilt over growing apart as I still care about my friends and they still care about me. Their thoughts about me haven’t changed so knowing it’s only me growing apart has been getting to me. Especially when I want to turn them down and be on my own. I don’t plan to cut them out of my life, but I am planning to put less energy into the relationship.
I turned them down for the first time last night, where I was free but didn’t want to hang out, and I felt so bad afterwards.
I have tried to talk to them about this, although not that well. I’m still considering bringing it up in some way but I’m not sure it would help. I still want to branch out no matter the outcome of a conversation like that. And the things they do that are contributing to me growing apart aren’t things that would change.
Anyways, any advice to make it through? Or is this one of those times in life where I will just have to accept the issues to make it out better on the other side?