TLDR, my first ever boyfriend broke up with me near our five months. He means so much to me and I still want him in my life in the eventual near future, but it is still difficult. I am friends with some of his friends still and I really don’t want to do anything that I will regret. We have been on a break but I still follow him on social media. I have him muted but I still see that he views all my stories, and the natural curiosity gets to me where I click to view his stories. The breakup was rather clean and wasn’t fueled by anything bad, he just wasn’t ready to commit to something like that and he felt that he couldn’t offer as much love in return. I just don’t know if this is the best way to approach things. I don’t know if I still want him back, or if he would eventually want that but I doubt it. I have come to terms that I cannot have the thought of things possibly returning if I want to be his friend, and still be friends with some of his friends. If I softblock him without saying anything then I feel like the friendship would be more difficult to rekindle? I don’t know, I am just a mess at times and I am just not entirely over the situation. Any help or just opening up about your past experiences would help, insight is much appreciated.