I constantly feel bad for things I do and say that are wrong, and am constantly trying to improve myself in that way. I also like to do considerate things for people that they don’t see, and strategize ways to help people. I feel empathy and compassion for people alone.
But in public, it seems like I can see someone in my group choking on food, and I don’t feel anything. It seems like I can see someone struggling with something physically, and feel nothing. Or someone in a wheelchair obviously exerting themselves to get up a ramp, and kind of feel sorry for them but not help them out of a seemingly-abstract anxiety. Sometimes I have to remind myself of my principles to actually help someone.
I’ve been told off for this several times. Most of all I just want to be more compassionate. What are some things I can do to get better at this? Besides of course just taking more seriously, which I’m doing. Thanks for reading.