I (30m) have decided to give up on dating, but I feel incomplete without a dating life. Is this normal or should I work on accepting it?

I’m a 30 year old man and I have firmly decided I don’t want a dating life. I’ll say something that will make me sound conceited, but please, I’m here to explain what my problem is and seek help, I’m actually suffering, don’t assume I’m here to brag:

I’m considered a conventionally attractive man. And I have evidence of this. It all started when I was in high school and I was most girls’ crush. After high school, I was the attractive dude in University. I get called handsome by men/women regularly. When I go out, women check me out in public places, or even stare occasionally, sometimes I get hit on (by attractive women too) and so on. Okay, then what’s the problem? Keep reading and I’ll explain. I’ll keep it as short as I can.

The problem is not that I find it hard to get women or sex. The problem is that sex is the least important thing to me, and because I don’t value sex at all, I only value what a woman could offer me financially or emotionally. I meet a woman… she’ll start giving me many hints… okay, good. But why should I take things further just because she’s giving me hints? Keep in mind, I don’t value sex. I won’t be all over the moon just because a good-looking girls seems available. That’s not even enough to make me want to talk to her. I need to be stimulated mentally: she could start by texting me or calling me to make sure I’m good, calling me handsome to make me feel appreciated, buying me dinner, asking for a date.. or even sex.

I’m not saying that I expect this to happen or that this is a realistic scenario, but I’d basically be happy to switch the gender roles. Women do the work, men sit and wait and say yes or no. This is what would make me want to date women.

Not making this up just for the narrative: last year I made friends with this group of women, I was the only guy in this social circle. 3 of these women seemed to be attracted to me, one of them openly said ”I’m flirting with you”. We were having a good time. Out of nowhere, I completely abandoned these women. They literally begged me to come back, saying they were missing me so bad etc. but I didn’t listen and I just cut them off and didn’t look back. Why? I knew they were into me, I gave them some time to make a move, but they were just giving me all the opportunities to take things further. When I got bored, I threw them away.

I have a very developed feminine side ( not saying I’m gay, I wish I was gay) an, women like it, ironically. I find it easy to form relationships with them, most women end up saying ”you’re one in a million. You’re handsome, you talk about anything, you don’t pressure women into sex, you’re classy when you talk.. even when you walk, you know how to dress. Most men instead don’t work on any of these qualities and are very primitive”

Unfortunately for them though, you can’t have the cake and eat it too. With my very developed feminine side, comes the problem that I try to invert the gender roles. Yes, awesome, I have all these qualities… but who’s gonna be the man now? You? If yes, I’m fine with that. I have decided I don’t want to date women, but I’m getting frustrated and the lack of a dating life is making me bitter, but I can’t change the way I’m wired. Even if I do meet one woman who is different, I kind of feel like I’m not really choosing her because I like her but because she’s the only option I have and I don’t like this.