Sick of going to things alone.

I’ve come to the opinion that social dissatisfaction is problematically cyclic: not having people to do things with makes me angry; being angry makes me unapproachable; return to square one.

Anyway. I’m looking for an outlet. I used to be pretty into rock climbing, but that requires a partner (and none of my current friends are willing to do that). My new idea is some type of martial art. This will hopefully kill two birds with one stone: taking a class could help me find people, exercising in a class could help me find an outlet for some of my social frustrations.

I’ve done a lot of things in my life alone. I’ve come to realize that being alone isn’t too bad- being *lonely*, however, is awful, even if the two aren’t mutually exclusive- but being alone in a group of people has the potential of being spectacularly unpleasant.

I’m debating whether its worth making an ass of myself in front of my current friends, family, coworkers, and acquaintances to see if I can find *somebody* willing to go to this damn class with me. Issue is: I’m pretty sure they’d say no, which is probably not going to help my situation, nor is it going to be good for my relationships with them. As an aside: I really struggle to understand this in relationships. I would do damn-near anything for my people, and not out of a sense of obligation either. This trait doesn’t seem to be reciprocated. I’m in no position, however, to be reckless with the relationships I already have. I also understand that boundaries are important, and I respect the limits of my friends. I just find it frustrating when so many of my suggestions are turned down without a counter-idea.

Alternative is just going- alone- and risking a potential outlet just adding fuel to the fire.

I’m not sure what I’m looking for from you lovely redditors. Any advice, comments, or anecdotes would definitely be appreciated though.