I’m really happy with myself and i don’t have any problems dealing with me but goddamn, i’ve just quitted entirely from almost any social interaction. I still have my few friends but i’m having quite frequent burnouts and fully isolating myself from everybody besides my family and i can’t help but feeling unlikeable whenever i see people
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it triggers me everytime i see a couple or just friends having fun together ’cause i’ve tried everything i could (from “try to just be cool without showing feelings” to “just be yourself”) and it worked with everybody i saw except me
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although i don’t care about my looks, i gotta accept i’m ugly af and honestly i never really had any interest of really taking care of myself but i realize that due to my appearance people often rather to be far from me
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i’d be lying if i said it’s mainly due to my looks. i’m the “high-func**t**ioning autistic starter pack” stereotype unironically but also incel
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i’d not change anything on me, but the feeling of living into a different world where i’m physically unable to interact with anybody is still bothering me and i don’t see any way besides accepting it’s my fate
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It is really hard, and I don’t want to pretend like I understand exactly what your life is like. Philosophically, though, I believe in change as a constant. We are all continually changing, in fact never still, existing only in the moving dimension of time.
Control can be so beyond us, though, that it can feel like we have no control at all. We have some control, some times, and that’s all we can do. 5% change, guided by your own selfish inner voice that says, “I can do better”
Now here’s unconventional advice try drawing porn of yourself for private use and you may begin to see yourself as desirable.
What is it that causes these burnouts?
Hmmmmmmmmm