Hey

So [M27] my gf [F23] has a bit of a history. We all do so I don’t get hanged up on that.

After we started dating I found out she did meth a few times on a party in the past. She’s 23 now and this was a year ago, since then she apparently never did it. And I believe her.

She also used to party a lot. But since we are together she changed. I talked to her about me not being against her going out to have fun but she keeps saying she’d rather spend the time with me etc. She’s really putting in effort. We even had an open talk about how I’ll understand completely if she wants to party more and stuff and is maybe looking for someone who will party for her but she keeps saying she’s over that and that she actually loves that I’m different and work on my future, don’t do dumb stuff each weekend etc.

Anyway she mentioned some hypothetical situation and I had an idea to do the same. I asked her if hypothetically she would be single right now, and at a party. Someone offers her meth, if she would do it. And her answer was at first “depends on who’s offering it to me”. After saying this a couple times she switched to “most likely not”. Then seeing my reaction she switched to definitely not. Now this may be dumb because it could be just that she’s not thinking about it too much and while with me she would not even think about taking something like that. Also maybe she didn’t even think properly about the answer at first. She went through some bad stuff last year. Had a hard phase. But apparently changed a lot since then. I didn’t know her back than but I do hear people saying now that she’s way more mature than she was.

But here’s what’s worrying me. Past is past that’s okay. But if hypothetically if she was single it would be about “depends who offers it to me” than in my eyes it’s a huge issue with values. I would never even touch drugs like that. Jesus Christ himself could offer them to me I wouldn’t take them. I don’t know there’s just something deep down that bothers me about the answer she gave me.

Am I being stupid?

TLDR: Asked gf if she would use meth (she did 2-3 times last year) if she was single and on a party having fun. She said it depends on who would give it to her. Seeing my reaction she went to “most likely not” then to “absolutely not”. Is this something to be worried about?

1 comment
  1. Tldr it please but one thing all meth users have told me is that never forget that feeling of meth. It is a lifelong battle to not use it again almost, and requires a furfilling life to have a chance of forgetting that feeling.

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