Social Performance

I don’t know if someone has a similar problem, but maybe some can relate to this story.

I’m 23M and living in a student dorm in Hamburg, Germany. I don’t have many friends around in the city, because I’m very introverted and have social anxiety.

Today i just went to our kitchen, when I heard loud music sounds downstairs. It was the karaoke night at my dorm. I thought I could maybe go there, to make some new friends and have a great evening. After on our to get the self-esteem to there, I went and just introduced myself a little to other people. After some time I’m noticedy there was not much talking going on between the people. I also tried to start a conversation with a girl and after I started with: “Hey” Everything went downhill. I was totally stressed in the short conversation and couldn’t really enjoy the moment. Sadly, the stress level didn’t go down and I was starring a lot more on my cellphone, to avoid social interactions. After a while I couldn’t bare the stress anymore. In my head, I wanted to talk to people, but I was too afraid to doing it.