I have social anxiety and my family is starting to think I have a problem cause I barely go out.

I wanna start saying that my English is not really good so I hope you guys can understand😆.

So ever since high school I was the quiet girl who would barely approach someone or start a conversation with a stranger. I hang onto the friends I had since elementary. I cared too much about what people would think about me so I always tried to stay out of social things if that makes sense.

Now I’m in college in another city and all my friends are in other places. I did make a few “friends” from class, but we don’t hang out outside of class. Also, I don’t really go to other places other than university so all the people i know are from there. I have always been aware of my “social problem”, but it is really hard for me to control my anxiousness around people that I don’t know. Honestly, even thought I know it is a problem that I need to work on, I don’t feel like it affects me that much. My career is pretty difficult and I barely have any free time to go out so I guess that is why I haven’t been seen my lack of social activities as a problem.

But these past days I’ve been noticing that my sister (who I live with) has been really cold and just weird to me, and my mom (who is at my hometown) has been kinda ignoring me and just talking to my sister in the group chat we have of the three of us. This morning my sister came to my room and bought movies tickets for us without saying barely anything, it was weird cause she don’t ask me if I wanted to go or anything really but I just agreed and didn’t think much cause she was kinda serious.

So the thing that I was afraid of just happened, my sister literally asked me “so what do you think of people whose only friend is their mother? Like they don’t have friends.” I immediately felt sick cause I knew what was going on, my mom and my sister have been discussing about me having no friends and I guess my mom have told my sister to take me out so that’s why she bought the movie tickets.

My sister now sees me like a burden, like a person with problems who she need to take care of and my mother just pities me. I don’t know what to do cause our relationship was really close before but now suddenly I feel like I have a problem. I don’t want them to see me this way.

Now our relationship is just weird, I used to tell them everything and do all these kind of silly things around them but now I feel like they don’t really know me or they can’t accept the fact that I’m introverted.

Everytime I talk to my sister now I feel like this discomfort cause I feel inferior, she has always made fun of me having no friends and now after she asked me that I honestly feel like shit idk why. I just can’t be the old me who told them everything and do silly stuff around them.

Please someone give me some advise😭, I don’t want to lose my relationship with my family. Am I too sensitive or this isn’t that big of a problem? How do I communicate them about my feelings? Or do I just try to make more friends just for them to see that I’m normal?