Got naked on ft, Idek if I regret it?

So basically as the tittle said i F(19) sent nudes to a guy M(20), now there’s not much of a problem with that except the fact that this guy and i have history and he’s an asshole. We’ve exchanged photos many times but i really didn’t want to send pussy pics for a long time so i said we should do it on ft. Guys it was the most awkward shit ever and i was like nervous the whole time bc it was our first ft. Anyways so i tried to find a nice angle and my phone kept falling, i’m telling him to wait and stuff but again it’s just so AWKWARD. And it’s just my pussy being on camera right in centre and i just couldn’t hide my embarrassment. So he said we should stop bc I feel uncomfortable and that this could be our trial run, he continued on but i felt awful (bc he rejected me) so i ended the ft while he was talking. Then he asked what was wrong and yeah. I feel like the one thing I didn’t want to orginaly show him bc I felt like i had the upper hand for awhile but now I feel… low, like i said he’s kinda an asshole so i didn’t want to before but it has been on my mind lately so I did it. I’m still embarrassed everytime i think about so yeah, maybe i’d feel less bad if i didn’t think he was a bad person but he sometimes can really turn me on so idk