I got depressed when I was 14 (I’m 20 now). At 15 started drinking, 16 smoking weed, and then a year later at 17 started doing hard drugs like speed and mdma up until 19. So I’ve been sober for around a year now and I feel muuuch much better.
However, I still feel closed around people, especially at work. I’m afraid of speaking in the office (there is 15 of us in a room). When someone try to tease me or playfully joke with me, I just don’t know what to say. My mind goes totally blank and then I end up saying something lame.
I also get looks and smiles from random girls but I never manage to initiate something because my mind goes blank as soon as something like that happens.
I really think I’m awesome guy but my mental clarity is awful in social situations (except close friends and family) and I don’t know how to get out of my shell.
Any advice? I’d greatly appreciate it 🙂
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For me, I will reflect on things that are said to me, especially if I’m being teased or made fun of. I will journal about them then think of what I should’ve said. Then the next time it happens, I’ve rehearsed it enough where it comes naturally to me.
As for coming out of your shell, it makes me feel good when I help others. Do you get the same satisfaction? If you do, perhaps make it your mission to help someone out each day.