Hi everyone, using a throwaway account here for obvious reasons. I apologise for TMI, but I don’t know if anyone else has been in my position because I am starting to feel like I have a problem. I’m also on mobile, so I apologise for the formatting.
I (F23) am quite hypersexual (I think?). I need orgasms everyday in order to be able to function. Even if it’s not multiple times a day, I at least need it once or twice a night so that I can sleep. I orgasm through my vibrator (Satisfyer Pro).
Lately, this is becoming an issue. I used to rely on pornographic content in the past, in order to climax and then I used to be able to sleep immediately. It eventually got to a point where no porn was helping me, so I used to go for hours to have an orgasm.
Now I don’t watch porn anymore (I have a partner now) and even if he and I have sex (through which I cum vaginally), I still need the clitorial orgasm using my vibrator. If my partner provides additional stimulation while I masturbate, I get off pretty fast, but if I am completely doing it by myself, then it takes a while and the entire process exhausts me.
It gets frustrating because I don’t even feel mentally horny – I do it because my body has this need for the rush, so that it sends me to sleep. If I don’t do it, I can’t sleep at all.
I should also mention that I have taken breaks from my WFH job just to masturbate, and I often find myself doing it when I don’t have anything else to do during the day either. It has not impacted my work and day to day function, but it is definitely impacting my sleep. I’ve been using a vibrator to get a clitorial orgasm for 3 years now. Prior to that, I used to use my fingers to rub it there – and now that does not work at all.
I feel like I am slowly going numb. I don’t know how to control this, I don’t know if there are any resources for women that can help me, and I don’t know what I am setting myself up for. I am also too embarrassed to bring this up with a doctor or my therapist. I am Indian, and based in Australia.
I feel like I have abused the reward system in my brain and I feel terrified and ashamed. I have no one to share this with, and my partner doesn’t see an issue with it (it hasn’t impacted our sex life at all).
Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated, thank you!!