First time posting here, so it’s maybe a classic. Using a throw away cause I’m so ashamed of it, so like said in the title I never had any orgasm in my life (and so no controlled ejaculation (if it’s called like that)), I’m in couple for 6 month now for the first time of my life, I already talked about this with my partner (M28) and he’s supportive and want me to manage to have one. But I still don’t know what is stopping me from having one, we tried multiple time, with me being bottom (im not really comfortable with being top), I bought a masturbator(not sure of the name in English) for 50e but it was a fail. So rn I don’t really know what to do.
(I take œstrogen (transitioning) everyday, oestrodose 5 dose a day, not sure it’s due to that)